Age is such a great motivation

So, I realized a couple of days ago, that I will be 25 in 8 and 1/2 months.

In a moment of desperation, I made a pact with myself.  That I would not cut my hair until I had lost X amount of weight.   I am a compulsive/emotional cutter.... which sounds terrible.  I am talking about my hair however.  I am always cutting my hair for some reason or another, so I thought that it would be an excellent motivator.

It was not.  Here I am  6lbs heavier and my hair reaches the lower middle of my back........

However, I love it.

A great motivator has been 2 things: A) a photo from just post high school where I weighed 125lbs and I looked amazing. (Disclaimer: I do NOT want to be 125lbs.  It is no longer realistic in my post baby bod.  I just want to look that healthy and feel that slender feeling I used to have.)  B)The fact that I do not want to be the weight I am at 25.  25 is my start-anew age and I want to feel good about myself so I can focus on myself and my spiritual path, instead of always focusing on my appearance and constantly being self conscious.  

So, due to being deeply unhappy with myself for getting to this point and expecting more from myself, here I go.

196.

Ew.