I am supposed to be....

....writing a letter I promised myself I would write today.  But it is a very difficult letter, and so I am distracting my self by cyber window shopping again.....

Today I found this:

and  this

(its a diaper bag... which I really almost don't need any more.... but its super adorable!)

  And this, because it has beautiful clean, and classic lines.

And this, because I really want a new briefcase, one that holds my laptop

(This one could also be a diaper bag........)

And then I saw this.  I MUST have it.......

If you know me at all, you know my slight obsession with all things zebra.... and I am a photographer..... hmmmm......

Well I suppose this is enough procrastinating for now.... Too bad it didn't make the writers block go away.....

Age is such a great motivation

So, I realized a couple of days ago, that I will be 25 in 8 and 1/2 months.

In a moment of desperation, I made a pact with myself.  That I would not cut my hair until I had lost X amount of weight.   I am a compulsive/emotional cutter.... which sounds terrible.  I am talking about my hair however.  I am always cutting my hair for some reason or another, so I thought that it would be an excellent motivator.

It was not.  Here I am  6lbs heavier and my hair reaches the lower middle of my back........

However, I love it.

A great motivator has been 2 things: A) a photo from just post high school where I weighed 125lbs and I looked amazing. (Disclaimer: I do NOT want to be 125lbs.  It is no longer realistic in my post baby bod.  I just want to look that healthy and feel that slender feeling I used to have.)  B)The fact that I do not want to be the weight I am at 25.  25 is my start-anew age and I want to feel good about myself so I can focus on myself and my spiritual path, instead of always focusing on my appearance and constantly being self conscious.  

So, due to being deeply unhappy with myself for getting to this point and expecting more from myself, here I go.

196.

Ew.

I went window shopping again today.......

Dream roles? :-)

That is a tough one. I wish I was a learned in shows as my friends, but sadly I am not. I would love to be the Witch from Into the woods however, and Martha from Secret Garden.

I am an open book!

If you could ask George W. Bush one question what would it be?

How were you able to become our president, when you have no concept of the proper use of the English language and proper grammar?

I am an open book!

If you could go back and do high school all over again, would you? If yes, what would you do differently?

No. I believe at looking to the future. As much as there is regret in my high school experience, I would regret missing out on the lessons I have learned that have made me into the person I am today, and the beautiful gift that I was given: my daughter. <3

I am an open book!

Being broke and cyber window shopping

Sometimes I hate being a responsible adult.  If you have checks in your checkbook, they should be accepted as currency!  Just saying. :)

I went cyber window shopping today.  I hate when I do that.  Cause then I just want things.  Like this and this and, well, this too.

Seriously, I could waste hours and dollars on Etsy. It even has an adorable name!

I decided to listed to the 90's channel on the comcast Music Choice today.  Took me WAY back.  Check it out if you get a chance.  Rekindled my love for the WallFlowers.  <3