24 and just another day....

Well, today is my 24Th birthday.

Every year it strikes me as odd that regardless of what I do or don't have planned and how good or bad the year prior was, I always have the highest of expectations for the day. Its so silly and every year I am disappointed in some way.

Why do we do that? I know I am not alone. Tell me you don't think its just going to be the most fabulous of days? No one realistically wakes up on their birthday and goes, "I just know this is going to be a shit day". Nope, people (usually) wake up with a smile on their heart, hoping someone will know that it is their special day and will do something just for them.

Now don't get me wrong, I had a lovely day. A couple of let downs, but nothing so major that I am swearing off my birthday for the next year, (Don't laugh too hard, I did that for basically 5 years running).

This year was pretty nice. Got a lot of calls, a lot of emails (read: posts on my Facebook wall) and more cards than I have received in the last 4 years combine. But there were a couple things that I just felt let down about.

I am currently, well, I guess you can say "fighting" with a couple of people whom I am especially close to. I received 2 cards from them; one for my first Mothers day and the other for my birthday. Reading the cards, I guess I should just know, but there was no "Dear Selena" or "Love you!" or even a handwritten "Happy Birthday!" It was just signed "X". It just felt so impersonal. I had cards from my work and my old pastor that were more intimate than these cards were. It hurt. It hurt more receiving them than if they hadn't sent anything at all. And someone else, whom I am pretty close to, I saw today and spoke to several times, yet, that person never once said "Happy Birthday". Oh well, I guess you cant win them all.

Here is my question. Why do we put such hope and expectation into our birthdays? We are simply setting ourselves up for disappointment, or, if not this year, possibly a bigger let down the following year.

Though I know it is just another day, I always expect more from it. If I could just approach it as if it were nothing, I couldn't be let down at all, right. Bah! I will try for this next year....

That really is asking for trouble though, huh? Oh well! Ha ha!

Have a completely normal, if not boring, regular old day. ;D